.x Rain on my windshield.

So Anthony's big 22nd b-day party is Sunday and I'm uber excited. I'm getting all these party du-dads in order before the party and its a bit overwhelming. Anywho, in other news my graduation day is in less than a month and im so nervous. After May 14th its real world/make-it-or-break-it time for me.
•sigh•

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.x New Attitude

So, i have a new attitude. I'm starting a new diet. I'm doing weight watchers for the next three months. At first, I'm going to just eat healthier. After the next three weeks, I'm going to start light exercise, building up to heavier exercise every three weeks. I graduate from college in a little less than three months and I hope to be back to my high school senior size by then. Wish me luck :)

.x Surprise

so im blogging today.
live from my flippn apartment. why? cause im bored.
football is on and so im watching that with the boo but other than that, im jus chilling.
i've had a whirlwind holiday season. Christmas in Texaz-Arkansas was fun. But, I now realize that kids are not my cup of tea. I love them, but i gotta give em back, lol. I also lost Chauncey (my iPhone) but its okay. I'll just have to get another eventually.

I also got a new tat .. i know i've been talking about it for how long, but i finallii did it, and i love it. it hurt like HELL but it came out beautifully.

so, im writing a new story. this one is gonna be a short novel i think. its a romantic thriller. its kind of new territory for me, but I want to make it as interesting as possible. Its not that hard. Im debating about entering some of my work into the school literary magazine. I'm very unsure about letting people read my work. idk why, but I just dnt like the criticism. But whatever, i think i'll do it for the second volume ... maybe.

In other news, i made shot glasses for New Years Eve and they came out pretty neat! I'll post pictures later. [I dnt hve Chauncey yu know :( ].

Um, in other other news ... there is nothing, lol. I've been reading up on my old blogs (as i do every year) and i had a gud tickle frm them. I'm not starting a new blog for this year because I am in dear love with this one's name. so ... until then

i hope yu know that
Ilmaimetrop

.x fuck yu

are yu cmn bck to me
i kno i said sme mean shit
i kno i hurt yu. but im nt in the
wrong this time. its yu tht hurt me
aftr all. i want yu to leave
but i dnt wnna be by myself
i dnt wnna regret mkn yu hte me
even though i hte yu rght nw
i kno ill always love yu.

so leave.
let my heart be
im nt tht important to yu aniiwaii.
if i cut off the sex
if i stopped doin shit fr yu
if i jus up and left
yu'd gt ovr me and mve on


so jus dnt cme bck

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.x my chevy

i dnt know if aniione knows
how it feels to hve the wrld
nt mke ...
sense
mttr
reality
life
... aniimore in a matter of
days everything yu feared
is cmn true. everythng
yu fought against is now
fighting against you.

win the battle
fuck the war
everything matters in
its own time. focus on
the perception of my
reality even though i
dnt believe in reality. i
think theres a here and
now but wht that all equals
is anyones guess. so to you
i say fuck yu and to me i say
fuck it.

fuck the reality

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.x decade of silence for

so im givin aniione who wants it, a decade of silence.

in other news im flippn bored. i hate when i wake up on a day when i hve nthn to do tht morning, and i cnt go back to sleep. its quite frustrating.

soap box moment:
sometimes i hate being me. i hate the fact that im so nice, so understanding, so pleasing of people. its just not my nature to be a bitch. ive tried and i felt so fake and pretenious doing it. ill nrver do it again. it makes me wonder, what real?
like me bein overly nice, caring, reserved, easily walked ovr, very impersonal, and stuff is me being me and being real.
but now-a-days everyobe expects everyone else to be this unrealistic cut out of
fake personalities. or maybe im just trippin.

ltr.

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.x Personification

soooo .... today was the wierdest daii tht i could have possibly encountered. my 11 o'clock was a look into iMDB with my professor and the columbine killer understudy. im truly bored shitless.

So, i hvnt bloggd in like four days ... why ... cause ive been a slave to my boss. And i've been studying fr once in my life.My classmates are a complete wreck. they crack me up.

Like 27 minutes ago I wanted to blog, but nw i dnt. i jus wanna go hme, snuggle under the big blanket wit my hunnie, eat Take the Cake Ice cream and watch movies ... and I will :)

ltr.