So, i feel like shit today. I have a super freakin cold and shit isnt goin the way I want it to. Lol.
anywho, in other news, it seems like my stars are realigned because Im happier than ever and everything in life is melding itself out.
Like, for one, Ebony seems to notice i exist, thats weird in itself. IDK why this is happening but um, i'll let it do its thing. Secondly, I feel at peace for once about the whole Alison situation. She isnt a crazy bitch after all, lol. And lastly, all of my enemies are living in everlasting tragedy (lol). jus kiddin.
Welp, in other news, I want a white iPhone 4 and a white iPad. I also just saw this random Jack in the Box commerical with a startling reference to viagra [ew, lol].
Oh, if I havent said this yet, im gnna say it again, Everyone At Prairie View A&M Unversity, No Matter What Your Major Is, You Should Take Dr. Marzette's African American Literature Class!
So, im writing another story for class and im actually giving my characters names. but i dnt know what to name them. i want my female to be named either Teagan or Marleigh. The guy, either Julius or Langham. IDK.
I love Anthony L. Ware II. He's kinda dreamy. I woulda never dreamed that we would be together, but we are and it mades me smile like no other. He's amazing. He makes me experience love, not just feel it. He really makes me be a better me, even when I dont feel like it. He's my soul mate and I'm beyond blessed to have him :)
Sooo, idk wht else to write, jus wanted to pop in and give a life update.
Peace:)
Monday, October 4
Wednesday, September 29
.x Rent
Good Morning Beautiful World :)
I'm in my 'starbeam' mood right now. I feel like everything in my life is going amazingly well. I feel like a thousand pound weight hasbeen lifted off my shoulders, I feel like the people that loves me most, understand me the best right now, and I feel euphoric. I dont like to make the same mistake twice, so in my quest to not repeat the past, I often find myself reliving the past (mentally). Today, I feel like the past is what it is and no matter if I repeat the same mistake, I will learn something from both times :)
So, I'm re-reading the EJD Gideon series (READ IT!) for my creative writing prose class [every writer at PV should take this class, its amazing!] and I'm really learning alot about making characters more interesting. I feel like my characters always have extreme emotions, happii or angrii, love or hate, never in between. So, my assignment today, make a character float between emotions seamlessly :)
***
To say I'm not a morning person is to make an extreme understatement. I set my alarm forty-five minutes early so I cn wake up in nine, five minute intervals. Its madness I know. But once I'm up, I'm up for good. I look over beside me at the snoring lump of etched chocolate manly perfection I call my man and I feel the way I did nine years ago when we were new. Its hard to regain that new feeling somtimes. Its not intentional, but we get set in our ways, routines, and overall schedule. Its bound to happen.
"Get up handsome, it's time to live your dream." Over nine years, you can pretty much understand a person. Understanding their moods and tendacies and thoughts is one thing, but understanding them and why they are who they are, is a completly different can of worms. I understand that Julius likes to be awaken with kind words and kisses, rather than a rough shake and a cold shoulder.
"I didnt think you'd be talking to me after last night." My feet moved softly through the air beside our bed. I looked at them swinging back and forth and picked a piece of lint of my pink and green polka dot socks.
"Why? That was last night, this is this morning." He leaned across his side of the bed and parked his elbows where my back once was.He trailed his fingers up the length of my back and through my maze of locked natural hair.
"I love you Teagan Marleigh Carlton." I looked at his eyes and watched the blades from the ceiling fan chop light into them in a rhythmic pattern.
"I love you too Julius Langham Carlton." As his chocolate hand patted my caramel skin I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, today was a new day.
**
"Ms. Carlton." I looked up from my desk and saw the lanky frame of Hooper Flint walking in his usual monotonous pace.
"Mrs. Carlton. How are you Mr. Flint?" Always on the edge of my desk, even though I have four chairs surrounding the cherry oak wood construct.
"I cant complain, do you mind if I call you Teagan." My tongue flashed across my lips and returned to feeling up the back of my front teeth. I brought my bottom lip in to nibble on the corner of it while I watched him.
I cant lie. Ever since I applied to work at
I'm in my 'starbeam' mood right now. I feel like everything in my life is going amazingly well. I feel like a thousand pound weight hasbeen lifted off my shoulders, I feel like the people that loves me most, understand me the best right now, and I feel euphoric. I dont like to make the same mistake twice, so in my quest to not repeat the past, I often find myself reliving the past (mentally). Today, I feel like the past is what it is and no matter if I repeat the same mistake, I will learn something from both times :)
So, I'm re-reading the EJD Gideon series (READ IT!) for my creative writing prose class [every writer at PV should take this class, its amazing!] and I'm really learning alot about making characters more interesting. I feel like my characters always have extreme emotions, happii or angrii, love or hate, never in between. So, my assignment today, make a character float between emotions seamlessly :)
***
To say I'm not a morning person is to make an extreme understatement. I set my alarm forty-five minutes early so I cn wake up in nine, five minute intervals. Its madness I know. But once I'm up, I'm up for good. I look over beside me at the snoring lump of etched chocolate manly perfection I call my man and I feel the way I did nine years ago when we were new. Its hard to regain that new feeling somtimes. Its not intentional, but we get set in our ways, routines, and overall schedule. Its bound to happen.
"Get up handsome, it's time to live your dream." Over nine years, you can pretty much understand a person. Understanding their moods and tendacies and thoughts is one thing, but understanding them and why they are who they are, is a completly different can of worms. I understand that Julius likes to be awaken with kind words and kisses, rather than a rough shake and a cold shoulder.
"I didnt think you'd be talking to me after last night." My feet moved softly through the air beside our bed. I looked at them swinging back and forth and picked a piece of lint of my pink and green polka dot socks.
"Why? That was last night, this is this morning." He leaned across his side of the bed and parked his elbows where my back once was.He trailed his fingers up the length of my back and through my maze of locked natural hair.
"I love you Teagan Marleigh Carlton." I looked at his eyes and watched the blades from the ceiling fan chop light into them in a rhythmic pattern.
"I love you too Julius Langham Carlton." As his chocolate hand patted my caramel skin I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, today was a new day.
**
"Ms. Carlton." I looked up from my desk and saw the lanky frame of Hooper Flint walking in his usual monotonous pace.
"Mrs. Carlton. How are you Mr. Flint?" Always on the edge of my desk, even though I have four chairs surrounding the cherry oak wood construct.
"I cant complain, do you mind if I call you Teagan." My tongue flashed across my lips and returned to feeling up the back of my front teeth. I brought my bottom lip in to nibble on the corner of it while I watched him.
I cant lie. Ever since I applied to work at
.x Spanish Class
i love the spanish lab in delco. its like the bat cave. I just come down here and get so much accomplished, like creating. I've managed to write six pages (front and back, handwritten) for my next short story. Its amazing how much you can get accomplished in a short period of time. I love this place, as i say it again!
in other news, i feel like everything in my life is in a grey area. my education is in a grey area because Im not exactly sure what I want to do after I graduate. I think i've found what I want to do but it requires me getting an actual job and save up [eek!]. lol, i can do it, i just have to get motivated.
so, a random funny thing, the new spanish teacher is giving a quiz in the lab and i just realized it because this lady is in here on her twitter and facebook. you should not be professor with a twitter page, unacceptable. Speaking of twitter, i need to start tweeting more {@_oniomaniac_}
I wish i could draw or paint, cause i always feel so inspired to get my emotions out that way, but it is.
Man, its Wednesday already, it feels like the weeks are passing by me at an unrealistically fast pace. its crazy. i still havent given my blog a purpose (on a side note).
Ugh, well, im bored and im off to do my usual Jamie-like activities :)
in other news, i feel like everything in my life is in a grey area. my education is in a grey area because Im not exactly sure what I want to do after I graduate. I think i've found what I want to do but it requires me getting an actual job and save up [eek!]. lol, i can do it, i just have to get motivated.
so, a random funny thing, the new spanish teacher is giving a quiz in the lab and i just realized it because this lady is in here on her twitter and facebook. you should not be professor with a twitter page, unacceptable. Speaking of twitter, i need to start tweeting more {@_oniomaniac_}
I wish i could draw or paint, cause i always feel so inspired to get my emotions out that way, but it is.
Man, its Wednesday already, it feels like the weeks are passing by me at an unrealistically fast pace. its crazy. i still havent given my blog a purpose (on a side note).
Ugh, well, im bored and im off to do my usual Jamie-like activities :)
Monday, September 27
.x tmi
i think i struggle with TMI. I'm a very open person, and so sometimes i just share things that i shudnt. lol, some people think its a curse, i think its a gift.
blah blah blah its a Monday. being honest, i dont hate Monday's, i think they're boring, but i dont hate them. I mean, have you ever thought about the way Mondays just start a week but thats a ll they do?
I feel like designing. Sometimes i get creative and feel like designing stuff, this is one of those times. idk wht to create. maybe i'll write, but i hve to idea what to write. i hate when my creativity gets critiqued, but [eh] its whtever, maybe ill design a cake, lol.
well, idk wht else to blog. maybe i'll have more to say ltr this week [hopefully abt my creativity]
laters :)
blah blah blah its a Monday. being honest, i dont hate Monday's, i think they're boring, but i dont hate them. I mean, have you ever thought about the way Mondays just start a week but thats a ll they do?
I feel like designing. Sometimes i get creative and feel like designing stuff, this is one of those times. idk wht to create. maybe i'll write, but i hve to idea what to write. i hate when my creativity gets critiqued, but [eh] its whtever, maybe ill design a cake, lol.
well, idk wht else to blog. maybe i'll have more to say ltr this week [hopefully abt my creativity]
laters :)
Sunday, September 26
.x Little Rascals
smetmes i wonder what life is all about. is it to get to the end and have been the best person you could possibly be? or is it to live yur life as happily as we cn. is our life even for us to live? man my brain hurts wen i hve these cul-de-sac thoughts.
in other news, senioritis has hit me hard already and i havent even turned in my application for graduation. lol. but its such a surreal feeling to me that im graduating in less than a year. i knew i could do it but yeah idk.
latelii ive been writing like crazii. my creativr writing tchr the leprechaun, lol, has really sparked my love for writing again.
i dnt think people realize jus how cathartic writing is. it like relaxes me. it makes me feel invincible because in my stories i hve all the say so and the control over my characters. sounds kinda bullii- ish huh? lol.
but for me, writing helps with life lessons as well: patience, kindness, trust, love, envy, hate, passion etc. i always find myself writing about one extreme or the other. lol its my style.
i look bck. at my ramblings and readings and realize tht if i was white in the 60s i wuda been a hippie. cause my whole take on life is tht everyone shud pick their vice (mine is a Tokyo Tea or a frozen house rita) and use it freely and responsibly so they cn relieve sme stress. i also wuda bn a hippie cause im so nonconfrontational. id rather talk about it maturally and move on instead of spreading lies and such. lying is an ugly thing.
i love watching snapped bc it tchs yu alot abt the human mind. people often react based on half-truths or one side of the story thts where they fuck up.
welp, im off to mke lunch :)
ltr
in other news, senioritis has hit me hard already and i havent even turned in my application for graduation. lol. but its such a surreal feeling to me that im graduating in less than a year. i knew i could do it but yeah idk.
latelii ive been writing like crazii. my creativr writing tchr the leprechaun, lol, has really sparked my love for writing again.
i dnt think people realize jus how cathartic writing is. it like relaxes me. it makes me feel invincible because in my stories i hve all the say so and the control over my characters. sounds kinda bullii- ish huh? lol.
but for me, writing helps with life lessons as well: patience, kindness, trust, love, envy, hate, passion etc. i always find myself writing about one extreme or the other. lol its my style.
i look bck. at my ramblings and readings and realize tht if i was white in the 60s i wuda been a hippie. cause my whole take on life is tht everyone shud pick their vice (mine is a Tokyo Tea or a frozen house rita) and use it freely and responsibly so they cn relieve sme stress. i also wuda bn a hippie cause im so nonconfrontational. id rather talk about it maturally and move on instead of spreading lies and such. lying is an ugly thing.
i love watching snapped bc it tchs yu alot abt the human mind. people often react based on half-truths or one side of the story thts where they fuck up.
welp, im off to mke lunch :)
ltr
Wednesday, July 28
. Hollywood Hiatus
man, i hvnt blogged in For-ev-ER.
Welp, in my life:
My Bae is HOME!!!!! Im overjoyed abou tht cause i was missin him prettii hard. Plus it was beyond time fr him to cme hme. Nownwe have our firat apt and everything seems to be on the upward trend with us :)
Secondly, I turned 21! Congrats to me. Its about damn time. Everytime we go out to dinner I order a drink. lol. My fave so far is the Tokyo Rose Martini at Shogun's. It was de-lish!!
Um in side note news I dropped sme more baggage (Brie had to go. Plus She was gttn to clingy)
I droppd my stressful job ( Hasta LaVista Jin Shin!!) & picked up an awesome one (AKPC tbe best daycare in Katy/(North)West Houston).
school starts soon! senior year here i cme. Hopefully i cn gt two more 4.0s and end this thing wit a bang.
and I wanna go to the circus. Well, I wanna go to the UniverSoul Circus. Ive nvr been and I think Itll b fun. Honestly i've never been to the circus. I think im scared if clowns. I also hd at least one in my nightmares but Ive never seen one in person so i cnt exactlii answer tht. What else?
Nthn :)
Later :)
Welp, in my life:
My Bae is HOME!!!!! Im overjoyed abou tht cause i was missin him prettii hard. Plus it was beyond time fr him to cme hme. Nownwe have our firat apt and everything seems to be on the upward trend with us :)
Secondly, I turned 21! Congrats to me. Its about damn time. Everytime we go out to dinner I order a drink. lol. My fave so far is the Tokyo Rose Martini at Shogun's. It was de-lish!!
Um in side note news I dropped sme more baggage (Brie had to go. Plus She was gttn to clingy)
I droppd my stressful job ( Hasta LaVista Jin Shin!!) & picked up an awesome one (AKPC tbe best daycare in Katy/(North)West Houston).
school starts soon! senior year here i cme. Hopefully i cn gt two more 4.0s and end this thing wit a bang.
and I wanna go to the circus. Well, I wanna go to the UniverSoul Circus. Ive nvr been and I think Itll b fun. Honestly i've never been to the circus. I think im scared if clowns. I also hd at least one in my nightmares but Ive never seen one in person so i cnt exactlii answer tht. What else?
Nthn :)
Later :)
Thursday, May 27
Jaii Dot
Here’s some A-Z factages about my awsumness
A - AVAILABLE:tkn by my wndrfl Army man!
B - BIRTHDAY: July 16, 1989 :)
C - CRUSHING ON: Anthony && a secret crush [shhh!]
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Milk frm my cereal bowl
E - EASIEST PERSON (PEOPLE) TO TALK TO: Milan [my othr prsnality], God, my Mom, Ant && Bubz/Brie
F - FAVORITE SONG: "December" Norah Jones
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Worms, the bears too thick
H- HOMETOWN: Baton Rouge, LA [where the heart is]
I - IN LOVE WITH: Anthony
J - JUGGLE: Tasks. Btw, does multitasking count?
K - KILLED SOMEONE: never tht, let em kill themselves [gtta keep my hands clean :) ]
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: Missouri in Middle School, 21hrs!
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Vanilla
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: Just me Bitches!
O - ONE WISH:More wishes please:)
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Anthony [Gud Morning!]
R- REASON TO SMILE: Love, Life, Laughter
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: "Speechless" Beyonce
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 10am
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR: nunya beeswax:)
V - VEGETABLE(S): corn, potatoes, peas, onions [ end ]
W - WORST HABIT: Frgting to remember
X - X-RAYS: I see through lies :)
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Cancer
I was bored and my narcissistic side kicked in so, voila!
enjoy noseys!
A - AVAILABLE:tkn by my wndrfl Army man!
B - BIRTHDAY: July 16, 1989 :)
C - CRUSHING ON: Anthony && a secret crush [shhh!]
D - DRINK YOU LAST HAD: Milk frm my cereal bowl
E - EASIEST PERSON (PEOPLE) TO TALK TO: Milan [my othr prsnality], God, my Mom, Ant && Bubz/Brie
F - FAVORITE SONG: "December" Norah Jones
G - GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Worms, the bears too thick
H- HOMETOWN: Baton Rouge, LA [where the heart is]
I - IN LOVE WITH: Anthony
J - JUGGLE: Tasks. Btw, does multitasking count?
K - KILLED SOMEONE: never tht, let em kill themselves [gtta keep my hands clean :) ]
L - LONGEST CAR RIDE: Missouri in Middle School, 21hrs!
M- MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Vanilla
N - NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: Just me Bitches!
O - ONE WISH:More wishes please:)
P - PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: Anthony [Gud Morning!]
R- REASON TO SMILE: Love, Life, Laughter
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: "Speechless" Beyonce
T - TIME YOU WOKE UP: 10am
U - UNDERWEAR COLOR: nunya beeswax:)
V - VEGETABLE(S): corn, potatoes, peas, onions [ end ]
W - WORST HABIT: Frgting to remember
X - X-RAYS: I see through lies :)
Z - ZODIAC SIGN: Cancer
I was bored and my narcissistic side kicked in so, voila!
enjoy noseys!
