Hola,
So, I'm blogging right now because i need
to vent. I feel like I'm so stuck between to life levels right now. I dnt necessarily feel like an adult but I do feel older than a young adult.
I know what I want in life and how to get it, but the pieces of the puzzle are not aligning the way I need them to. It's extremely frustrating.
Other than that, I'm just trying to work and stack up as much money as Ican because in a few short months, no matter what's going on, Ant & I will open our own business. And it will be successful.
Finally, in recent news, I'm so happy to be 22 :)
Later Gator
Showing posts with label Anthony. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Anthony. Show all posts
Friday, August 5
Tuesday, July 19
.x Wednesday: Its a Party :)
So it's Wednesday. The middle of the week. Tomorrow is payday. Friday is the weekend. So many gud things to look forward to.
I'm in dire need of a nap but I cant :(
Lately, Ant & I havr been cooking different foods. We had cajun pan seared tilapia, sticky ribs, breakfast casserole, and sme othr stuff. Tonight for dessert I'm thinking about making stuffed beignets. I havent decided what to stuff them with though. I'm thinking about doing strawberry cream cheese or vanilla fluff. idk yet.
Now tht I'm finished bein a lil fat kid, on to more pressing issues. Ant & I working on starting our own business. I absolutely positively know that this idea we have is going to be amazing and I cant wait to do it. We've already done alot of the written stuff, the idea sketches, etc... now we need
to get those wheels a turning.
Doing all of this for our business has me so motivated and inspired to make a better world for those behind us.
I'm so excited to see how the rest of our generation makes an impact on the world.
How will you make a your mark?
Don't just dance on the moon, conquer it!
Jaii
I'm in dire need of a nap but I cant :(
Lately, Ant & I havr been cooking different foods. We had cajun pan seared tilapia, sticky ribs, breakfast casserole, and sme othr stuff. Tonight for dessert I'm thinking about making stuffed beignets. I havent decided what to stuff them with though. I'm thinking about doing strawberry cream cheese or vanilla fluff. idk yet.
Now tht I'm finished bein a lil fat kid, on to more pressing issues. Ant & I working on starting our own business. I absolutely positively know that this idea we have is going to be amazing and I cant wait to do it. We've already done alot of the written stuff, the idea sketches, etc... now we need
to get those wheels a turning.
Doing all of this for our business has me so motivated and inspired to make a better world for those behind us.
I'm so excited to see how the rest of our generation makes an impact on the world.
How will you make a your mark?
Don't just dance on the moon, conquer it!
Jaii
Saturday, October 23
.x thank me later
First : i cnt sleep
Second: i added a bunch of new stuff to my blogs appearance. I added some buttons where you cn now email, facebook, twitter, googlebuzz, etc. my post to someone else! it makes it alot easier to share my awesomeness, yur welcome! (im tryn nt to be conceited).
Third, i have alot to write about.
lately ive been acting very out of character. or so i thought. i stopped to think, what does it mean to act out of character? does it mean that you do things that you wouldnt normally do? i decided that this was exactly what it meant. so i chronicled my "out of character" behavior. i decided that it was happening because i was frustrated and tired and i felt like i deserved to not be the bigger person for once in my life. okay. with that being said, i also thought about ways to keep things like this from happening in the future. i decided that i need something more constructive to do with my time. so i got a new journal and i decided that instead of typing my stories (which can take as little as 10/15 minutes to type two pages) im going to handwrite them. this way i have a more intimate relationship with my stories and i have less time. lol.
last night Cecile, Anthony and I went to an Art Show. It was really nice. I honestly didnt think i'd enjoy it as much as i did. But i loved the whole artsy atmosphere. there were two pieces that stuck out to me. one was an orange forest. i loved how the artist used one color in several different shades and hues to create art. i also liked this semi-3D piece that had a bird, a flower, and a vase and it had all different types of music written inside the leaves. idk whii i liked it so much, but i do.
also, the art show had a vagina on the door of the womens bathroom and a penis on the door of the mens bathroom. i like nude art. maybe imma freak, but i think its mostly because i like the open expression. i think im going to put up some nude art work in my house whenever we move into a house (soon hopefully).
well, im good now...
ltr
Second: i added a bunch of new stuff to my blogs appearance. I added some buttons where you cn now email, facebook, twitter, googlebuzz, etc. my post to someone else! it makes it alot easier to share my awesomeness, yur welcome! (im tryn nt to be conceited).
Third, i have alot to write about.
lately ive been acting very out of character. or so i thought. i stopped to think, what does it mean to act out of character? does it mean that you do things that you wouldnt normally do? i decided that this was exactly what it meant. so i chronicled my "out of character" behavior. i decided that it was happening because i was frustrated and tired and i felt like i deserved to not be the bigger person for once in my life. okay. with that being said, i also thought about ways to keep things like this from happening in the future. i decided that i need something more constructive to do with my time. so i got a new journal and i decided that instead of typing my stories (which can take as little as 10/15 minutes to type two pages) im going to handwrite them. this way i have a more intimate relationship with my stories and i have less time. lol.
last night Cecile, Anthony and I went to an Art Show. It was really nice. I honestly didnt think i'd enjoy it as much as i did. But i loved the whole artsy atmosphere. there were two pieces that stuck out to me. one was an orange forest. i loved how the artist used one color in several different shades and hues to create art. i also liked this semi-3D piece that had a bird, a flower, and a vase and it had all different types of music written inside the leaves. idk whii i liked it so much, but i do.
also, the art show had a vagina on the door of the womens bathroom and a penis on the door of the mens bathroom. i like nude art. maybe imma freak, but i think its mostly because i like the open expression. i think im going to put up some nude art work in my house whenever we move into a house (soon hopefully).
well, im good now...
ltr
Tuesday, October 19
.x Lets Talk About
lol, i was thinking bout the salt and peppa song ... i think its really random that spinderella was in the group, like am i too young to remember her contribution to the group? possibly so.
Aniiwho, im sittin in the library watchin these kids act a fool earlii in the morning (its 8:19 am to be exact) and it makes me shake my head in shame.
[note from me :) i hope that everyone who reads this blog reads it from start to finish because i really want alot of my black sistas to lemme know if im right in how i feel or if im waiiiii off target]
if you talk to some people, black women have it hardest in the world. first because we are a minority by being black and then we are a minority by being a woman. so, i can understand how over the years women have inately taken ownership of this "victim or villian" mentality. not to insult your intelligence or anything, i jus wanna explain this.
The Wester's dictionary definition of victim is:
1. a person who suffers from a destructive or injurious action or agency (ex. a victim of an automobile accident.)
2. a person who is deceived or cheated, as by his or her own emotions or ignorance, by the dishonesty of others, or by some impersonal agency (ex. a victim of misplaced confidence; the victim of a swindler; a victim of an optical illusion. )
so, you can see that based on those to definitions, we as black women really dont have any business considering ourselves victims of our circumstances (and by circumstances, i mean being black and a woman).
by the same token, we also dont have to be the villian. most times in society, black women think that if we cant be the damsel in distress then we must be the one causing the distress. this definition (though it doesnt have to be) often times rings true because we feel like we must exact revenge on those who've hurt us or we must hurt the people who could hurt us before they do hurt us. its a sad story honestly. i am speaking from my own personal experience when i say that we as black women need to learn to be free and live. we need to stop letting the societal norms and the possible scrutiny of our "superior (males and whites) peers" put us in places where we feel like we cannot and will not succeed.
why am i saying all this? i think for a long time i suffered from this victim or villian disease. i felt like i was either a victim of my circumstances or a villian because of how i tried to change my circumstances. i have realized i am neither. i am simply a participant in my activities and a co-dictator of my life. i make choices based upon the situation before me. there is no right or wrong choice, there is simply a choice that best fits me and if that choice doesnt suit whoever is on the other side of it well then that is something that they will have to deal with for themselves. that isnt my responsiblity.
on to more relevant news, so the shebeast is up to her usual tactics, but i think its amusing. its funny how when someone knows they're wrong, they will do everything in their power to make you feel bad when in reality they are trying to make themselves feel better. so, since she was on i mission, i stirred her up a little yesterday and she went on and on about pretty much how much of a slut she is. its really sad. i think subconciously soceity has set alot of people up to fail. our society is so sex driven that alot of times people do things that are probably out of character for them all because of sex. maybe its me and im one of the few people that doesnt undersrtand what is so magnificently wonderful about sex that it would make me act out of character, but some people would argue me down that there is power in the respective sex organs. i disagree. i think the power is mental. the power is in the mind of the person who cant love themself enough or respect themself enough to not let sex be a motivator for their promiscuous behavior. but thats just me.
lastly, [i promised i wudnt be long winded todaii {lol}] i want to discuss love. i think love is my favorite topic. love is something that i love to talk about. i love to talk about it because its one of those words that can mean anything and everything you want it to mean. its one of those words that can be the difference between peace and war, happiness and misery, right and wrong. love is so powerful. everything and everyone needs it yet few of us really find up.
my grandparents are among the few, they've been together since they were teenagers and to this day they are sill together. thats real love my friends. thats the kind of love i want. thats the kind of love i have. dont let love be your motivation, but dont let hate stop you either. its a very thin line between love and lust, hate and wantonness. its a line we walk all the time, but one thing i can say is that i love ALWII more than i lust for him.
so be easy bloggees :)
Peace
Aniiwho, im sittin in the library watchin these kids act a fool earlii in the morning (its 8:19 am to be exact) and it makes me shake my head in shame.
[note from me :) i hope that everyone who reads this blog reads it from start to finish because i really want alot of my black sistas to lemme know if im right in how i feel or if im waiiiii off target]
if you talk to some people, black women have it hardest in the world. first because we are a minority by being black and then we are a minority by being a woman. so, i can understand how over the years women have inately taken ownership of this "victim or villian" mentality. not to insult your intelligence or anything, i jus wanna explain this.
The Wester's dictionary definition of victim is:
1. a person who suffers from a destructive or injurious action or agency (ex. a victim of an automobile accident.)
2. a person who is deceived or cheated, as by his or her own emotions or ignorance, by the dishonesty of others, or by some impersonal agency (ex. a victim of misplaced confidence; the victim of a swindler; a victim of an optical illusion. )
so, you can see that based on those to definitions, we as black women really dont have any business considering ourselves victims of our circumstances (and by circumstances, i mean being black and a woman).
by the same token, we also dont have to be the villian. most times in society, black women think that if we cant be the damsel in distress then we must be the one causing the distress. this definition (though it doesnt have to be) often times rings true because we feel like we must exact revenge on those who've hurt us or we must hurt the people who could hurt us before they do hurt us. its a sad story honestly. i am speaking from my own personal experience when i say that we as black women need to learn to be free and live. we need to stop letting the societal norms and the possible scrutiny of our "superior (males and whites) peers" put us in places where we feel like we cannot and will not succeed.
why am i saying all this? i think for a long time i suffered from this victim or villian disease. i felt like i was either a victim of my circumstances or a villian because of how i tried to change my circumstances. i have realized i am neither. i am simply a participant in my activities and a co-dictator of my life. i make choices based upon the situation before me. there is no right or wrong choice, there is simply a choice that best fits me and if that choice doesnt suit whoever is on the other side of it well then that is something that they will have to deal with for themselves. that isnt my responsiblity.
on to more relevant news, so the shebeast is up to her usual tactics, but i think its amusing. its funny how when someone knows they're wrong, they will do everything in their power to make you feel bad when in reality they are trying to make themselves feel better. so, since she was on i mission, i stirred her up a little yesterday and she went on and on about pretty much how much of a slut she is. its really sad. i think subconciously soceity has set alot of people up to fail. our society is so sex driven that alot of times people do things that are probably out of character for them all because of sex. maybe its me and im one of the few people that doesnt undersrtand what is so magnificently wonderful about sex that it would make me act out of character, but some people would argue me down that there is power in the respective sex organs. i disagree. i think the power is mental. the power is in the mind of the person who cant love themself enough or respect themself enough to not let sex be a motivator for their promiscuous behavior. but thats just me.
lastly, [i promised i wudnt be long winded todaii {lol}] i want to discuss love. i think love is my favorite topic. love is something that i love to talk about. i love to talk about it because its one of those words that can mean anything and everything you want it to mean. its one of those words that can be the difference between peace and war, happiness and misery, right and wrong. love is so powerful. everything and everyone needs it yet few of us really find up.
my grandparents are among the few, they've been together since they were teenagers and to this day they are sill together. thats real love my friends. thats the kind of love i want. thats the kind of love i have. dont let love be your motivation, but dont let hate stop you either. its a very thin line between love and lust, hate and wantonness. its a line we walk all the time, but one thing i can say is that i love ALWII more than i lust for him.
so be easy bloggees :)
Peace
Monday, October 4
.x Shit
So, i feel like shit today. I have a super freakin cold and shit isnt goin the way I want it to. Lol.
anywho, in other news, it seems like my stars are realigned because Im happier than ever and everything in life is melding itself out.
Like, for one, Ebony seems to notice i exist, thats weird in itself. IDK why this is happening but um, i'll let it do its thing. Secondly, I feel at peace for once about the whole Alison situation. She isnt a crazy bitch after all, lol. And lastly, all of my enemies are living in everlasting tragedy (lol). jus kiddin.
Welp, in other news, I want a white iPhone 4 and a white iPad. I also just saw this random Jack in the Box commerical with a startling reference to viagra [ew, lol].
Oh, if I havent said this yet, im gnna say it again, Everyone At Prairie View A&M Unversity, No Matter What Your Major Is, You Should Take Dr. Marzette's African American Literature Class!
So, im writing another story for class and im actually giving my characters names. but i dnt know what to name them. i want my female to be named either Teagan or Marleigh. The guy, either Julius or Langham. IDK.
I love Anthony L. Ware II. He's kinda dreamy. I woulda never dreamed that we would be together, but we are and it mades me smile like no other. He's amazing. He makes me experience love, not just feel it. He really makes me be a better me, even when I dont feel like it. He's my soul mate and I'm beyond blessed to have him :)
Sooo, idk wht else to write, jus wanted to pop in and give a life update.
Peace:)
anywho, in other news, it seems like my stars are realigned because Im happier than ever and everything in life is melding itself out.
Like, for one, Ebony seems to notice i exist, thats weird in itself. IDK why this is happening but um, i'll let it do its thing. Secondly, I feel at peace for once about the whole Alison situation. She isnt a crazy bitch after all, lol. And lastly, all of my enemies are living in everlasting tragedy (lol). jus kiddin.
Welp, in other news, I want a white iPhone 4 and a white iPad. I also just saw this random Jack in the Box commerical with a startling reference to viagra [ew, lol].
Oh, if I havent said this yet, im gnna say it again, Everyone At Prairie View A&M Unversity, No Matter What Your Major Is, You Should Take Dr. Marzette's African American Literature Class!
So, im writing another story for class and im actually giving my characters names. but i dnt know what to name them. i want my female to be named either Teagan or Marleigh. The guy, either Julius or Langham. IDK.
I love Anthony L. Ware II. He's kinda dreamy. I woulda never dreamed that we would be together, but we are and it mades me smile like no other. He's amazing. He makes me experience love, not just feel it. He really makes me be a better me, even when I dont feel like it. He's my soul mate and I'm beyond blessed to have him :)
Sooo, idk wht else to write, jus wanted to pop in and give a life update.
Peace:)
